He still matters.

NO, NO, NO!!
This isn't fair..

There's this song..
&& every time I hear it
I think about him.
And I get really fuckin depressed.
It was my favorite song when
I met him. I remember him singin
it when the ringtone went off on my
phone.. Like, I can still picture that.
It was sooo long ago! Its crazyy.


This is probably dumb..but, I always put it on replay.
Over && over again.
Then all those memories come back.
And I realize how much he meant to me, and how he
still matters alot. And, I'm pretty sure that the next
three days are going to be longest of my life because
I need him now. And when you need somebody now..
Three days is a long time to wait.


If love is the best feeling in the world, why does it hurt so much?
I believe that its the best feeling in the world, but I have no idea
how to answer that question. Its buggin' the shit out of me..
Someone answer the question?


He is really is amazing.
Like, my life began when I met him. Everything changed.
I was never happier than I was just laying in his arms,
My fingers linked with his. Nothing else mattered but us.
&& They say a smiles worth a thousand words?
His is worth every bit of a million.
Love is not a maybe thing. You know when you love someone.

I'm missing him right now more than I've ever missed anybody.
&& I'm starting to realize I've missed him all along.
I knew the first day I met him..
He was going to be hard to forget.

&& I've realized over the past few months,
That everyones going to hurt you.
You just have to decide who's worth the pain.
The only people that can really hurt you,
Are the ones that matter the most.

Expect more blogs soon!
Cause I have alot to get off my chest right now.
Writing all this down is just bringing back so many
memories, and so many things..
And wayy to much emotion.
I have to get this off my chest some how.

Deuces && I'm out.