Who said it was easy??

Lets just start with the fact that he's absolutley amazing, and he doesn't even know it. Maybe thats what makes him so special? He's doesn't think he's better than anybody else. Actually, sometimes he feels pretty fuckin' low. But, he's amazing to me. He's amazing!

&& Its crazy. I've liked guys before. Like, you think their the best thing ever and no one could replace them. Then you realize its really going no where! You just wanted it to work and wanted to believe that it would. And when its all over, you know that it really wasn't as meant to be as you thought it was. With him, its so different.

He's so different than those other guys. He makes me feel beautiful, even when I'm at my ugliest. The happiest times of my life, they've been with him. He is that person that makes me happy, happier than I could have ever imagined. Sometimes, I wander.. What was my life like before him? Because I really can't remember. I don't think I want too.

I feel soo stupid, though. Because.. He broke my heart. Seriously, fuckin broke it. And, I'm giving him a second chance, because no one has ever made me feel the way he has. I miss him. What if he breaks my heart again.. Is it going to be worth all the heartache all over again 10x worse? Like, is he really worth that? Do I care about him that much? I do! And, its the only way to find out if he's really who I believe he is.

I don't have to try to be happy. When I'm with him, it just happens. Love doesn't walk away, people do. && When you love someone.. You don't give up. So, I'm gonna go with this.. and see where it takes me. Who said love was easy?? Whoever said that obviously has never been in love.